Mind in a spiral

The rugged Mr.I-Don't-Give-A-Fuck in me tells me to stay out of everyone else's business
To avoid emotions and everything that makes us human
It tells me to seek adventure, danger, search for horror and death to look it straight in the face and challenge it
To resent love and romance, to give everyone the gaze that means "better not fuck with me"
Though I still can't help myself being a gentleman...

The romantic dreamer in me tells me to value all the extraordinary moments, even though they'll never come back, never last long and fade away like a dream
It tells me to take chances to change the grey day, to cherish these special feelings that you have for someone, for the one you love, the one that's been haunting your heart and mind for years
To absorb all the pain and bad luck, in order to acquire inspiration, motivation, to become stronger, better
Yet I can't help myself being a spoiled little boy

The spoiled little boy in me tells me not to feel bad for being a parasite, for not growing up, for staying immature and helpless in the real world of civilization
Tells me to be ignorant towards what's going on around me, to stay out of it, to live in my own fantasies, and that it's the only thing worth of my attention
It tells me to emphasise the boundary between my world and what's beyond it
Yet I can't help myself being a stray knight

The knight of no land and no master in me tells me to always be righteous, honest, to protect the general nature of justice and to defend the honour of those who can't do it by themselves
To be helpful and selfless, sacrificing, never to back down on my duties and principals and never to run away from the trials that life grants to me
It tells me never to lie, or break a promise at any cost
To seek the holy grail of my own and never to turn my back on my comrades in arms and beliefs, even if they decieve, betray or forsake me, never to be unforgiving
But I just can't help myself being a rugged Mr.I-Don't-Give-A-Fuck"...